today there is rain and tomorrow it may shine

today i am happy.
tomorrow i may be sad.
but all in all it makes for one creatively challenged child.
i wish life was always happy. but then, like the weather,
we would never appreciate the sunshine,
if we didn't have rain and storms, snow, sleet, cold...etc, we wouldn't
notice the beauty and warmth of a spring morning.
of anything to create an emotion, i think songs do it best,
tell me anything in a song and i will likely believe it. (^_^)
okay so why am i happy? cuz i'm not working today?
maybe cuz i'm going to the mall? (yay!) i don't know,
but it doesn't really matter much.
cuz it might rain tomorrow... ^_^

wow i haven't posted in a long time....sorry, thou blank cyber space. (o_o)


okay, i'm trying to be patience, but it's like i can't grow up fast enough
all of the sudden i'm all ready for all these things...i have a amazing job,
i'm likely getting a car soon, i want to just be done with the whole high school
life. ^_^
sounds odd...but my whole life i've wanted to be younger and now all the
sudden i wanna be older, i wanna grow up and be an adult. or at least
have the privileges of being an adult. 'o_o
my brother just got himself an new phone. a take off of the iPhone but still
realllly cool. i don't really wanna pay 70 bucks a month for a freakin' phone.
so then i remind myself that he is 20 and i'm 18 and it's still okay that i have
a crappy little phone.
T_T
so...also, those people that i know. the 'little' ones. :D i love them, a lot, but still
they are hard to talk to sometimes...just the whole immature thing.
and i'm not saying that i'm sooo mature myself but at least i have ideas of what
i want and i'm going where i want to be.
and i'm saying it again, i love them, but sometimes i just get annoyed, i just
don't want to go to another social mess-around with them all...the juvenile little
arguments and the petty little disagreements.
just grow up people! >.<

<3

why me again?

so today is an odd day, again. it feels like something out of a dream.
i feel like everyone i know doesn't know me. they think i'm one person
but sometimes i wish i could just be someone else.
i don't know who i am. i don't know what i am. i don't wanna become
like any of them. i don't even know what i wanna become like.
i for sure don't wanna become like most of my friends, some of them are
so annoying/lame. and i know they love me, which is important, but then...
i don't know.
and i have really cool friends...but i don't hang out with them enough to
be like them!
(or maybe i just think they are cool because i don't know them well
enough to realize that everyone is the same)
...this is confusing, maybe i should just drop the whole idea of trying to
hang out with cool people and just hang out with people who like me anyways..

so there's this one person tho, who want to be my friend, but...i don't really wanna
be her friend. is that totally mean?
she is such a...clingy, innocent, naive, and two-faced at the same time! :o it's
a hard question to answer and i don't wanna just be mean, because i've had
people do that to me. i knew they didn't wanna be friends with me because of
how i looked or what i did, or anything like that... it's so superficial

=_=

spinning gods, just outta sight

yeah, lucky you
cuz in your dreams
life still goes on.

those pretty castles in your
skies.
abstract beauties
spin and wheel.

please don't wake up, i'll kiss
you back to sleep.
i see this fantasy crumble,
sink away into mindless mumble.

...cuz in your dreams...
life still goes on.

missing you...
-your emerandom

you and me and nobody else together

i feel like i'm 10 years old. i'm so happy.
:D
i know i won't feel like this tomorrow or even in 20 minutes...but i do right now.
haha...whatever. okay people, have a fun life.
i should write on my story...coz i'm happy, then anything can happen, right?
oh yeah...i also have a test tomorrow, which will be cool...hopefully, i studied enough, so i should ace it...
okay this little child should go off to bed :P
listen to Children 18:3; You Know We're All So Fond of Dying

shut up, you are not the most important.

sometimes i just wanna kill you.
it's like we should be friends, but
you annoy me so.
everything you do, is like another
jab.
'hey i don't like you. wanna do
something about it?'
and then you get all upset when i
get angry...
are you really that clueless?
i doubt it, and that only means
i have confidence in your god
given intelligence, nothing else...




honestly it feels like i'm always
the one to give in and let you
do what you want.
but perhaps you feel that too?
why are we sisters????? this is so
annoying half the time, and the
half, i wouldn't do without you...
gosh, i'm sorry, i'm so bipolar.
(e_e)
and i'm tired. so i'm sorry...

-your emerandom wants to go to
bed.

unfortunately left behind

im an unfortunate remain from
those days when love was not a word,
please don't tell me that you love me.
just show me. it's not that hard actually.

maybe im just a symbol
of hopeless romance, but i don't want
what most of them have to offer.
be a little different please...

-your love sick emerandom