problems of promises

What the heck was I thinking?? Or maybe it wasn't like that. Maybe neither of us were thinking. Maybe we each thought it was the others idea. Maybe we were both doing what was suggested to us by those we trusted. But how did they know what we wanted? Maybe in 5 years when we both have children of our own, then we will look back without feeling so confused. Look at me, I'm all turned inside out, it's all so unknowable.