Saturday, July 3, 2010

today's good things are water and mint

if you saw me today, you might believe I was lonely, insecure, unattractive and somewhat hypocritical. and you might be right.
tomorrow you might see me and believe that I was confident, outgoing, politically correct and with an eye for style. and you might be right.
but what is the difference between today and tomorrow? and what does it mean that whatever you believe about me somehow affects what I am the day after tomorrow?
I am inside me, so I don't see how you see me. I wonder if you think I'm proud and mean, or if you can see that I'm just scared and trying to appear confident in case you are someone not to be trusted.
just a picture can tell a lie in so many ways, even I almost believe the lie when I look at the pictures. but i can't really.
do you know? when you look at me, I feel like you can see right through me, but you don't even know me. and you can't possibly understand me in a look.
and when I see you and you are not attractive, then I love you. and if I see you and you are beautiful then I feel that you are looking at me and thinking that I am not.
but I don't see what you see, cuz I'm inside me. so next time we meet on the street, please do more then ignore me. just smile and tell me that you don't care if we are different, or the same.

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