childhood

when that moment comes to say goodbye to childhood, i hope that with a mature smile i can kiss it farewell and move on into a new part of life...

make me alive

I am
DEAD,
so make me
ALIVE
in
CHRIST.

we trust him because he's not done yet
im going to heaven because of Jesus Christ.

-for hk
for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.
but wait, Jesus, breathe your life into her, i love her so.
i want eternal love for her.
please love her like i never can...


-your emerandom

i am

i feel like
a failure.
why do i
always
think
is has to be
me?

everything
i've ever
wanted is
like a castle in
the sky.
i can never reach it cuz it's always too high.

this is my picture

i've made this picture. it's really quite beautiful.
it's honest, sweet, helpful, loving, trusting, and
open. SMILE it says.
this is the picture i've made of me.
peel away the pretty paint and plaster.
underneath is me, i'm mostly black,
with bits of scattered confused colors.
they know it's not what i pretend it is.
i cry a lot, and it's pretty lonely here because
not a lot of sunlight gets in.
this other picture is much more shocking.
it's lying, cruel, hateful, wary, tear stained.
don't talk to me. it says
at night when i'm alone the black tells
me the truth. i'm a lying fake,
if they knew they would hate me.

-your emerandom

fading away

why do people get so emo over dead flowers?

is it because flowers are so beautiful, fragile and sweet smelling?
even if you don't pluck them, they die soon anyways.

they wilt and fade away so quickly...it's like our youth, our lives.

one moment, so beautiful and then in a second we are faded and old.
grey and dying.